I see the term karmic partners getting thrown around almost like a curse word. Little do you know that you share karma with your Twin Flame as well. Your karma is what keeps triggering you and causing separation.
My story is unlike any I have ever come across in the Twin Flame community. I have seen marriages getting torn apart because of Twin Flame awakenings. My Twin Flame awakening happened a little over 4 years ago. Little did I know at that time that I was already married to my Twin Flame. I experienced a spiritual awakening 1st and because of a childhood trauma I was given 2 karmic partners to clear my Sacral Chakra blocks.
These were sexual awakenings, both spiritual in nature. No physical sex ever took place. It was very important that neither would become physical because of the healing that was to take place due to my childhood trauma. Neither of these karmic partners triggered the feelings I had experienced with my Twin Flame. My Twin Flame could not heal this because he was meant to trigger the feeling.
My Twin Flame was my 1st sexual partner and because of the unresolved trauma from my childhood I suppressed my sexual nature. I did love my Twin Flame but I did not want to be intimate with him. I am sure he felt that I was cold, or maybe he chalked it up to me being inexperienced.
I was sexually attracted to him but there was shame blocking my sacral chakra. Shame from being touched in an intimate way by someone I felt I could trust. My Twin Flame mirrored this feeling for many years. This was not something I recognized until my spiritual awakening when I began to learn about the chakras and what they represent within our physical bodies.
I knew that I had a block there but I thought it was due to other reasons. I thought my Twin Flame was unloyal and that he was flirting and trying to be with other women.
I had repressed my trauma. Denying what was done to me. Saying that it only happened that one time and that we didn’t have sex so maybe what had happened to me wasn’t wrong and it was just a mistake or a misunderstanding. That this person had mistaken me for someone else. He was intoxicated at the time. Tons of excuses were made for this person and I pushed it into the back of my mind.
The funny thing is secrets don’t stay secrets forever, even those that you keep from yourself. Your mind has a way of protecting itself, but future traumas make the repressed memories come back and that is what happened to me.
My Twin Flame and I have triggered one another with betrayals. We are both frightened to love one another because we don't want to experience the pain of losing one another. Yet that is the very thing we are doing. We are losing one another. The more he triggers me, the more I want to lash out and cause him pain. It is an endless cycle of pain.
The more we hurt one another the more we block ourselves off from love. We think that we are protecting our hearts but this is what is causing the separation and the distance between us. The reason I am talking about my experience is because there is so much judgement on karmic partners. Every karmic I loved I loved just as intensely as I loved my Twin Flame. That was their purpose. To bring that intensity out in me. I met my karmics during my union with my Twin Flame.
There were problems in our union, but we just ignored them. Suppressing them much like our childhood traumas. Yes, my Twin Flame has his own childhood traumas but they are not my stories to tell. They are his and he may never choose to reveal them to anyone else but me. I do not love him any less than he loves me. Although at times I am sure he feels like I do not love him at all.
That is to be expected with me having filed for divorce and all. I know many of you reading this are thinking “No Way! Then this can’t be your Twin Flame.” “It sounds as though this person is Karmic.” In a way my Twin Flame is my Karmic partner. We are meant to clear each other’s karma. That is the whole point of a Twin Flame to clear old wounds.
My story is unlike any I have ever come across in the Twin Flame community. I have seen marriages getting torn apart because of Twin Flame awakenings. My Twin Flame awakening happened a little over 4 years ago. Little did I know at that time that I was already married to my Twin Flame. I experienced a spiritual awakening 1st and because of a childhood trauma I was given 2 karmic partners to clear my Sacral Chakra blocks.
These were sexual awakenings, both spiritual in nature. No physical sex ever took place. It was very important that neither would become physical because of the healing that was to take place due to my childhood trauma. Neither of these karmic partners triggered the feelings I had experienced with my Twin Flame. My Twin Flame could not heal this because he was meant to trigger the feeling.
My Twin Flame was my 1st sexual partner and because of the unresolved trauma from my childhood I suppressed my sexual nature. I did love my Twin Flame but I did not want to be intimate with him. I am sure he felt that I was cold, or maybe he chalked it up to me being inexperienced.
I was sexually attracted to him but there was shame blocking my sacral chakra. Shame from being touched in an intimate way by someone I felt I could trust. My Twin Flame mirrored this feeling for many years. This was not something I recognized until my spiritual awakening when I began to learn about the chakras and what they represent within our physical bodies.
I knew that I had a block there but I thought it was due to other reasons. I thought my Twin Flame was unloyal and that he was flirting and trying to be with other women.
I had repressed my trauma. Denying what was done to me. Saying that it only happened that one time and that we didn’t have sex so maybe what had happened to me wasn’t wrong and it was just a mistake or a misunderstanding. That this person had mistaken me for someone else. He was intoxicated at the time. Tons of excuses were made for this person and I pushed it into the back of my mind.
The funny thing is secrets don’t stay secrets forever, even those that you keep from yourself. Your mind has a way of protecting itself, but future traumas make the repressed memories come back and that is what happened to me.
My Twin Flame and I have triggered one another with betrayals. We are both frightened to love one another because we don't want to experience the pain of losing one another. Yet that is the very thing we are doing. We are losing one another. The more he triggers me, the more I want to lash out and cause him pain. It is an endless cycle of pain.
The more we hurt one another the more we block ourselves off from love. We think that we are protecting our hearts but this is what is causing the separation and the distance between us. The reason I am talking about my experience is because there is so much judgement on karmic partners. Every karmic I loved I loved just as intensely as I loved my Twin Flame. That was their purpose. To bring that intensity out in me. I met my karmics during my union with my Twin Flame.
There were problems in our union, but we just ignored them. Suppressing them much like our childhood traumas. Yes, my Twin Flame has his own childhood traumas but they are not my stories to tell. They are his and he may never choose to reveal them to anyone else but me. I do not love him any less than he loves me. Although at times I am sure he feels like I do not love him at all.
That is to be expected with me having filed for divorce and all. I know many of you reading this are thinking “No Way! Then this can’t be your Twin Flame.” “It sounds as though this person is Karmic.” In a way my Twin Flame is my Karmic partner. We are meant to clear each other’s karma. That is the whole point of a Twin Flame to clear old wounds.
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